Shmooookin'

Well if you've been up on the news lately from BC, you probably know about the many severe wild fires that are burning right now. 

This is a pic from the shore of Tchesinkut Lake in Burns Lake.  That is smoke in the background with a plane doing fly-bys with water.

The smoke has been a horrible health issue in PG.  It's really bad for those who already have respiratory problems but for those who don't, sore throats, head aches, runny/stuffy noses, red/itchy eyes are the common side effects.

Here's another picture taken the same day at the same lake.  Looks gloomy yet nto so gloomy because of the blue sky, which we hadn't seen much in PG.

In the morning and evening the sun would shine bright pink or red.  That was because of the smoke and particles in the air in front of the sun.  Occasionally we wouldn't even see the sun.

The smoke prevents me (for example) from walking outside for exercise, driving because of the ash that flies into the car via the vents, and sitting outside.  My throat has been hurting for a few days now and I feel like I have a head cold because of the congestion.   Very gross.

This is a picture in the area of Fraser Lake, near PG.  I'm sure this plume of smoke has been part of the bad air quality in PG.

Just today I heard that Edmonton and even Saskatchewan has started to see/smell the BC smoke.  Doesn't smoke eventually dissipate eventually?

I heard from the radio that the smoke is supposed to die down by this next Monday.  The weather has partly to do with that...cooler temps, rain and little wind will bring the smoke to an end.

Let's all PRAY FOR RAIN....at least 1 hours worth.

I'm Probably Thinking/Dreaming Too Much For My Own Good

(Thinking of him) 

When will I get married?

When will I meet a guy to date?

How will this happen?

Will I know that I know he's the 'one' for me?

Will my family accept him?

Will he have the qualities I'm looking for, or the complete opposite?

These questions, plus many more, constantly float like in a whirl pool within my mind.  I'm 31, the oldest of siblings, and the last one to find a guy and to get married.  I was so sure, years ago, that I would be the one married first.  Why I thought that is beyond me because I really only have had 2 serious relationships.  Those odds weren't great for finding the 'one' for me.

One thing I hear often is, 'you'll find him when you're not looking or least bit expecting'.  Well that's a lame sentence.....when I haven't looked there's been NOBODY.  I lived in a town of about 3000 people and didn't expect to find a guy there, I was also hoping I wouldn't find one there either for a couple of reasons:

1. I marry the guy and I'd probably end up related to 1/2 the town

2. I might not move out of that town if the guy is from there and all his family is there.

I'm sure you can understand my logic there.  This town was quite 'hickish' and oppressing as well so am glad to have moved away.

About a week ago I had a dream that I was getting married and afterwards the guests were saying I should've married the best man.  Why they would say that is beyond me.  Also, when I got the wedding planner's bill, it was $824.00.  CHEAP!  Nevertheless, when I woke up I had the happy wedding feelings/thoughts/pictures in my mind that I wanted to plan my future wedding.  I purchased a hard cover, spiral bound, drawing book with black pages.  I bought one wedding magazine (as they are $$$) and thought I could 'browse' in it and cut out my ideas and likes and put them into the book.  Well today, a little while ago, I started surfing the web regarding wedding colour ideas and started getting bummed out.  Why was I looking at this stuff when I'm not close, at all, to getting married?  At first I thought it would be fun to make a 'dream' book for myself but now I just get bummed out.  So if I could return the book I would, but the label has been taken off and wrecked :(

So what do I do now?  I'm not an extrovert so being in larger than 4-5 people social settings is uncomfortable for me.  I haven't joined a club, exercised at the gym, etc for me to meet people.  I work on all Sat & Sundays so going to church doesn't happen anymore either.  During my bummed out times of thinking on this subject I can almost convince myself that I'll die a spinster.  I'd rather not be one but at this rate and my age (which isn't too old, but feels old) I don't see much time left to find the right guy.  It would be really nice if he found me.  I only had one guy pursue me and that was because he was an ex and he wanted me back while I was dating someone else.

I don't want to be the pursuer anymore....not much success in that, at least for me. WHERE ARE YOU??

My Next Project

These two flowers represent my grandma and I.  She's the yellow Rose and I'm the blue Tibetian Poppy.  Grandma enjoyed tending to her gardens for as long as I knew her.  She had tulips, dahlias, roses, a huge rhododendron, and many others.  I asked my mom if she knew Grandmas' favourite colour of rose, she thought it was yellow.  I like wild flowers as well as poppys.  I chose this particular poppy because it's blue. 

I've been thinking about what my next tattoo was going to be for quite a while now and my first thoughts were to add wild flowers and a vine to the bumble bee I already have on my left ankle area.  But just recently, a couple weeks ago, I thought about having a sort of memorial to my grandma tattooed on me.  It had to include a flower and a really nice, feminine font that said "Grandma".  So off to google I went to search for yellow roses....above is what I selected mainly because of the defined petals.  Then I thought about adding something that would represent me, so I also chose a flower and above is what I selected.  I was lucky to quickly find a nice, flourishing font to reflect who Grandma was.  It's called Scriptina.

This tattoo will be done on my wrist, not sure which one though....maybe my left one as it's less dominant and used less.  The two flowers will be beside each other with the word below and possibly in a rounded shape, not straight across like it is now.

Anyways, I don't have the money right now and some car repairs are needed to be done first.  I think this will look very pretty and it will probably be done in a tattoo shop in PG.